Eww. My hair

Lately, my mom's been obsessed over getting my dyed hair back to it's natural, dirty blonde. After trying to dye it back literally 3 times in like, a month we decided to try a darker brown. Did that work? No, now it's got red roots and it's like, dark brown/blackish on the bottom. It'd be cool if I didn't look so pale. X.X; Am I pissed? Very. I guess I'll have to start saving up to get the colour stripped.

OhEmGeee.

It's been an interesting couple days. Last night at 11:30pm the power went out, so I woke up really cold at like 5 am. After pulling on like, 4 sweaters and wrapping the blankets up around myself I slept until 9:30ish. When I woke up, my mom and brother and I were huddled on the couch, wrapped up in blankets with the dog. Our house is really drafty and the windows, it's an old house so there was wind blowing right through. So we got dressed, crated the dog and headed out to Tim Hortons. I guess our area was pretty much the only place without power because my grandmother had power and majority of the houses we drove by had lights on. We were at my grandmothers for a couple hours and then we decided we'd stay for the night, because our house is way too cold. So we went home to get the dog and some PJ's and clothes. The poor dog was shivering like hell. I felt so bad for him. D: So we loaded up him and his crate, leash and tieout and came back to my grandmothers, to our dismay, the power went out. And it stayed out. The next 2 hours were spent searching for/lighting candles. Around 5:30ish we headed to the church for a rehearsel for the mass on Christmas Eve. That went well and it took about 2 hours, 90% of the time was setting up microphones and chit chatting and whatnot. Power flickered a few times but my mom brought a flashlight. When we came home the power was back on, at my grandmothers. But our area was pitch black. Power crews were there, I saw a shitload of those trucks and cherry pickers on like every pole. I guess they gave up because it was still out. Nova Scotia power said that we prolly won't get the electricity back until like, 11:30 tomorrow night. There's nobody to talk too. D: *cough*katii&jabine*cough*.

O.O;

My mom decided to go to Wal-Mart at like, 3:30 this morning. It wasn't that bad, but I only got 4 hours of sleep. We were at my grandmother's house until like, 11pm. Because we have to stay with her until she goes to sleep because my aunt won't get off her fucking ass to do anything, did I mention she lives next door to my grandmother? Unlike us, where it's a 5 minute drive. >.> Yeah, we got in at 11pm and were up for 3. It was literally -15 outside and the car took FOREVER to heat up. Then all the Tim Hortons were closed. ;-; When we got to WalMart, my mom decides to putz around while my brother starts screaming. Shane got like, 4 Nerf guns, and I got a new hat, a scarf and some mittens, a $25 iTunes card, and a Skittles chapstick. :D All in all it wasn't that bad. On the way home we stopped at Timmies and got hot chocolate and then on the way to my grandmothers my mom and I stopped at Timmies again. It's probably all the hot chocolate that's keeping me up but still. We did some baking, I made the sugar cookies (actually, I just cut them out.) and ran off. Facebook's being stupid, it won't load and I wanna go hooooome. ;_;

I Don't Care - Apocalyptica ft. Adam Gontier.

I try to make it through my life

in my way, there's you

I try to make it through these lies

that's all I do

Just dont deny it.

Dont try to fight this

and deal with it

and that's just part of it

If you were dead or still alive

I don't care

I don't care

just go and leave this all behind behind

'Cause I swear (I swear)

I don't care

I try to make you see my side

I always try to stay in line

But your eyes see right through

That's all they do

I'm getting buried in this place

Ive got no room your in my face

Don't say anything just go away

If you were dead or still alive

I don't care, I don't care

just go and leave this all behind behind

'Cause I swear (I swear)

I don't care

Not changing everything

You won't be there for me

Not changing everything

You won't be there for me

If you were dead or still alive

I don't care

I don't care

just go and leave this all behind

'Cause I swear (I swear)

I don't care

If you were dead or still alive

I don't care (I don't care)

I don't care (I don't care)

just go and leave this all behind behind

I don't care (I swear)

I don't care

At all.

BumBumBeDumBumBumBeDumBum

Mood: Okay.

Listening To: The Leaving Song Pt. 2 - A.F.I

I'm still sick, and no internet. ;-; Today my brother asked my mom if he could stay home today to "look after me." She was like, I don't care. So Shane hung around for the day and bugged the shit outta me. Both parents have to work tomorrow and I'm making sure Shane goes to school. All I need is to feel better. >_>; This is fucking boring, all my friends are either not talking to me, offline or at the Semi, which I had to miss because of this fucking flu. Oh well, I look horrible in dresses. (: I might be getting an iPod Chromatic. :D I'm set on either the purple, blue or green. But I'm probably gonna go with black. Meh. Whatever.

DGJKJTOIGOThll.;kgl

Mood: Dunno

Listening To: Mind in the Gutter - Chris Crocker

I've been cramped up inside ALL day and I think I'm going insane. Seriously. My mom didn't pay the internet/tv bill so I was bored out of my fucking mind. Shane's like, creeping around while I write this all hunched over at my grandmother's house on her computer, which isn't as slow as it normally is. Semi is on Thursday and if I'm not feeling better by tomorrow night, I'm not going. Won't be worth it. Oh well. Whatever. Christmas is in like, 16 days-ish? Kinda excited for that, I guess. Here's a hint to all you that read this, if you're gonna eat crackers, make sure you've got something to drink. =\ They're really dry. I'm just gonna wrap this up now, before I go fucking insane.

Lovely

Mood: Sick/Bored/Gross.

Listening To: Eyelash Curlers & Butcher Knives - Jeffree Star.

SEMI: 3 days.

CHRISTMAS: 17 days.

I haven't written in a while, been too busy. My grandmother was diagnosed with Lewy Body Dementia, which is pretty much the same as Alzheimers. Couple years ago, my grandfather died of Alzheimers, so we're going through the whole dementia phase again. >.<>

We might be moving in with her, because she lives all by herself. At least we don't have to move to another province, but if we do move in, we have to get rid of Skipper. I really don't want to move in. The house is cold and uncomfortable. To me, it's not really a home at all. =/ Things have changed to much, it's just another bleak and lifeless place.

Christmas is coming up and we're doing things the way we used to. Wake up, open presents, breakfast and CHILL OUT. :) I miss those days. Then have supper and if anyone invites us over to their house we'll go there. Unfortunately, we can't go to my other grandparents, which we've done our whole lives. But they moved to Newfoundland and we moved here.

Semi-Formal is on Thursday. I'm excited, sounds like a lot of fun. We ordered my dress and it should be in tomorrow. It's black with purple polka dots and knee length. Hard to describe so I'll get a picture or two and post them here. Problem is, I caught the flu from my brother and I'm all cramped up. ;_; Lets just hope I'm better by then.

I do the video announcements at school with Courtney, Fallon and Kevin and they need to grow the fuck up. >.> Fallon and I are the announcers daily because Courtney and Kevin refuse to go on camera and on Friday, Fallon threw a temper tantrum because Kevin and Courtney didn't want to announce. So after arguing about it for 20 minutes Fallon was like, "k, i'll go on." Bitch. >_>

Uhmm, I think that's it for now. O-o;

Updates.

Mood: Normal.

Currently Listening To: Sound Effects and Overdramatics - The Used.

`SECOND CHANCES;

They don't ever matter

people never change

[once a whore you're nothing more]

i'm sorry that'll never change

I haven't written since like, November 10th-ish. Lately, nothing's happened. Srsly. My life is that dull. But the semi-formal is in 12 days. My dress is about knee-length with purple dots and a black bow. :) Kaitlin has been obsessing over it like, forever now. Like, mid-October she went out and bought her dress and whatever. But her dress is really pretty. IM DRINKING ORANGE GUAVA JUICE RIGHT NOW, and about 5 minutes ago I was watching Nardwuar interviews. XDDD

Crossroads

Current Mood: Confused.

Currently Listening To: Miss Murder - A.F.I

Walked into our world and made...

Horrible sounds

I can still hear them today

[Sweetly they seem]

Beau'ti'ful now.

Like, the day before Halloween a couple of my friends got into a fight with eachother. I don't know if it was playfighting or an actual fistfight but they seemed to be okay about it for a while. The day after, one guy decides to kick the other guy in the face. After a two day suspention things got really tense in the group. When I asked one he said 'because he's an asshole.' When I asked the other he said, 'I don't know, ask him.' Also, another friend of mine seems to want nothing to do with me, if those are the games she wants to play, that's fine by me. But these 3 people have pretty much torn the group of us apart. I'm at crossroads here, choosing between one or the other, I just hope that eventually everyone will grow the fuck up.

Rant On: Twilight.

Current Mood: A ranting one. : D
Currently Listening To: Decode - Paramore.

Wear your heart on your sleeve,
Make things hard to believe,
I'm not feeling this sit`uation.

I've been in a mood to rant. (: So, here goes.
Oh, and I really don't care if it hurts your feelings, it's my opinion.
I'll advise you now, if you have some delicate feelings,
GTFO.

Lately, the 'Twilight' series has skyrocketed in popularity. A story about a girl named Bella Swan and a vampire named Edward Cullen. Average vampire/human story? Yeah right. First off, the Cullen's are considered 'vegetarian' vampires. So they only suck blood from animals Wtf? There's another character in the series and his name is Jacob Black, I believe? Whatever; he's the bad guy. Anyhow, girls (and some guys) everywhere are claiming they're on 'Team Edward' or 'Team Jacob.' There's even tshirts that say that I'm sure. When people say their name is '...' Cullen, or '...' Black when your last name isn't Cullen, or Black is just fucking retarted. Saying you're going to find your 'Edward Cullen' is total BS. No guys out there are total pansies that are covered in glitter. Twilight is going to turn out like Harry Potter, a bunch of books and a bunch of movies. J.K Rowling has some competition. Personally, I gave the HP series a huge chance and didn't enjoy them, at all. No, I'm not jumping to conclusions and saying Twilight is a piece of shit, I will give it a chance but it won't be an overused topic of conversation.

LOL.
That made no sense. (:

Yuckkk.

Current Mood; Sick.

Currently Listening To; Room 409 - Bullet For My Valentine.

Rain, rain.
Go away.
Come again another day.
All the world is waiting for the sun.

I'm sick today. D: Probably caught whatever my brother has. On wednesday, I had to give up Gaia too. But I did make a Facebook. Which I guess isn't that bad. Last night my mom and I were talking about pajamas and I told her all mine were too short, which they are and she gave me the ones she was gonna give me for Christmas. XD They're purple with white and pink snowflakes. :] Today, I'm not doing my hair and I'm not getting dressed...but I did take a shower, because being clean is good. Right now I'm too lazy to finish this so I'll write again later on.

Todayy...

Current Mood: Random.
Currently Listening To: Bad Girlfriend - Theory Of A Deadman.



I drift away to a place,
Another kind of light,
Take away the pain,
I create my paradise.


I went to my bby's house today. <3 We made chocolate chip pancakes and dyed our hair with Tint A Hints. The water in the bathtub was a lovely orange colour in the end. She dropped the bottle of syrup and there was this huge crack. So we emptied it into a container. Very interesting. Also, we shared a small bag of cheesies. While we were trying to clean up the syrup spill before it went under the fridge, the phone kept ringing. XDD Lovely, eh? Our English teacher gave us shit because we couldn't walk quietly down to the library, so he made us walk laps around the school. He'd stop us and ask us if we were embarrased yet but no one said anything. Truth is, it's not embarassing when you're missing class. Besides, we were glad that we didn't have to do work. XD So he brought us to the first floor and said, 'let's walk slowly, by the grade 9's, and the principle and the teachers.' Didn't bother us at all.

Updatess. : D

Current Mood; Happy.
Currently Listening To; Sleepless Nights - Faber Drive.

Those painful times,
So alone, so ashamed.

I haven't written in a while. XD My TWLOHA shirts came on thursday, but I probably already said that. For Halloween I was electrocuted. What I did was I teased my hair and put black smudges all over my face. Pretty professional. Right now I'm playing with pink playdoh. : D

Up's and Down's...

Mood: Happy.
Currently Listening To: Girls Not Grey - AFI.

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss
Selfishness...

La de da daaa. These last few days have been interesting. My mom decided she'd re-dye my hair it's natural colour but the dye we bought was too dark, meaning it wasn't light enough to go through the red. My roots are more blonde. XD Lately I've been in a mood too. Like, one minute I'm real happy and the next I'm real bitchy. x_x If I bitch at any of you that read this, I don'tpossibly mean it. Unless you deserve it. My grandmother and cousins put mulch on my grandfather's grave. It's fucking hideous. >_> MY TWLOHA STUFF SHOULD BE HERE BETWEEN TOMORROW AND NEXT MONDAY. : DD

DUDE WE HAD A HALLOWEEN PARTY ON FRIDAY NIGHT. IT WAS BOMBBB. Katii was an emo bubblebee and I was an emo fairy. We had the best costumes, if I do say so myself. LUKE, (Ali's brother) WAS IRON MAN. He ran around punching all the guys in the balls. T'was very funny, I did pee my pants. Shane's friend William was running around wearing Mitchell's pirate mask and scaring people when they came out of the bathroom. Katii walked out of the bathroom and Will jumped out and shouted BOO. She jumped, screamed and landed on her arse on the floor. XD I PISSED MYSELF LAUGHING. I'll post pictures eventually.

OMF...

Current Mood; Happy.

Currently Listening To; Shut Up and Let Me Go - The Ting Tings.

Nothing compares to,
A quiet evening alone.
Just the one, two,
I was just counting on...

I edited a picture of me, and a picture of Fancy, check my editing skillz;

This one's me.

This one's Katii.













I'm so pro. :]

Why Me?

Current Mood; Neutral.

Listening To; Stricken - Disturbed.

I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive...

Lately, I've been in such a bad mood. Things happen one after another. First, my trip to Toronto was cancelled due to lack of funds. Then my mom said I couldn't re-dye my hair because her and my dad liked my natural colour. Did I mention my grandfather died a year ago today? =/ Next thursday there's a school dance and guess what? I have some sunday school thing to go to. Shitty luck. I'd might as well go die in a hole. >>;

Partayy. ;D

Mood; Happy.

Currently Listening To; Bomb This Track - Mindless Self Indulgence.

You're looking for the rainbow;

But it died not long ago.

Tonight I'm sleeping over at Fancy's house! Because tomorrow, we have this Kids Help Phone Student Ambassador training thingy. From 10am to 9pm. o_O Well, I think it'll be fun. Then after that my mom said we're gonna have birthday cake because my dad had to work on wednesday, (my birthday.) Now it's all a mater of convincing my mom to get my grandmother to let her borrow her car so I can go to Katii's. Fucking dog won't stop barking either. >_> Anyhow, Courtney and I talked to Mr. Clark today at lunch about our TWLOHA/IC thingy and I couldn't remember like, anything about them so I had to email him the link to the 2 groups. Here's a picture of my Skipperbby. <3

That's about it.

Later, bitchezz.

Oh...yeah? Whatever.

Mood; Not the best.

Listening To; Here I Stand - Madina Lake.

I will wait for you;

She said, endlessly.

I will wait for you;

So spoke, MISERY.

So, today has been neutral. We ordered some To Write Love On Her Arms stuff, pretty rad. But I recently found out my parents want my hair back it's natural colour. >_> Isn't that lovely? It looks like shit. No, I don't mean any harm to the people with dirty blonde hair. I just don't like it on myself. Yesterday was my birthday. I got 100$ (which I spent on TWLOHA stuff,) an iPod docking station, Fancypants got me a tiara and goofy little pin that I had to wear all day, a bag of butterscotch chips, (courtesy of Katiikinz) and a picture frame from Fallie Wallie.

Courtney and I were talking yesterday night, and we thought that it would be an awesome idea to hold some fundraisers for these 2 organizations. To Write Love On Her Arms, and Invisible Children, we're going to talk to Mr. Clark tomorrow about it. I think it'll be fun. Kevin got taller. Little buttmunch is almost as tall as me. ;-; Today I didn't do my hair, it wasn't straightened/teased. Alex said it looked good unstraightened and he didn't like it straight. Fancy and Fallon also said it looks better unstraightened. Kevin and Mitchell said they don't notice. XDD

Thought I'd include a picture today, of my lovely (LOLYEAHRIGHT) red hair.

Peace out, bitchess.

Just When You Think...

Mood; N/A.

Listening To; Übers Ende Der Welt - Tokio Hotel.

The HARDEST ['thing'] in life...
./is. letting go of what you thought was REAL.

They say how you spend your birthday sets the mood for the year...right? Ha. Right. Good one. If you've read a couple previous entries, you've learned that I'm going to Toronto from the 23rd to the 27th. Sounds like fun, get to see my best friend and all that jazz. We had an awesome list made up and everything. Well now, after getting all worked up and excited about it I've learned that I might not be able to go. Why, you may ask? Ticket prices were jacked up. The flight there is like $277, which didn't change. The flight back however is like, $800? I'm really not sure. We have only like, $500/$600. For 2 people the total is like, $3200. Yeah, there and back.

As the days go by, they jack the prices up. Lately I've been doubting it, I don't think I'm going to Toronto this time. Which really upsets me. The last 2 years I haven't been able to do like, anything for my birthday. 2006, my birthday fell in the middle of the move to Nova Scotia. 2007, my grandfater was in hospital that week/died 4 days later. This year? Aside from the first anniversary of my grandfather's death, I had my hopes up to escape this hell and see my best friend. No, lovely. Aside from it being like, the most upsetting time of the year, why don't you just get my hopes up and crush my spirits. Sound like fun? I fucking hope so.

>_>

ROCK&&ROLL;BBY. <3

Mood; Content.

Currently Listening To; Nothing.

Rock&roll,BABY;
Don'chaknow[thatt]we'reallalone.n.o.w.
&&i n e e d s o m e t h i n g t o s i n g a b o u t . <3

OH YEAH. So, Blogger sent me an email saying I had to enter this thingy in a bar to prove I'm a person and not a spambot, so I wasn't here for a couple days. But I'm back. :]

Super Amazing List of Randomness!

Currently Listening To; CrushCrushCrush - Paramore.

Mood; Extremely excited!

Seeing as I've been yammering on and on about this trip to Toronto, Jabine and I have made a list of things we are going to do, so here it is.

THE SUPER AMAZING LIST;

1. - Try to do everything on this list being made now, all in one day, because we're awesome like that. ;)
2. 2. Go to all the old hangouts.
3. - Make a fucking random and funny and stupid video that gets posted on YouTube, and isn't alowwed to be removed. AHAHAH.
4. - Highlight our hair with some totally random off looking colour. Because we're fucking cool like that.
5. - Though we do this easily just by living on earth, make a fool of ourselves in front of at least one person. ^_^
6. - Find some totally random place in the house to camp out in the whole time. :]
7. - Ding Dong Ditch...Bitch. AKA, Brianna.
8. - Take a bazillion pictures on different angles and whatnot.
9. - Go tell the people living in Amy's house to A - Fuck off. B - DingDongDitch C - Ghosts are haunting them
10. - Run around like freaks, and when people stare, give them the finger.
11. - BUY SHIT. =D MATCHING SHIT.
12. - Listen to music until our eardrums fall out.
13. Go to...Stores, And take pictures. In front of people. Like lunatics. Posing and all that jazz. xD, like 2 'scene' kids posing for a MySpace picture. XD
14. Quack like a duck at every stranger that looks at you funny.
15. - Go to a photobooth and take the best pictures ever. I mean, like EVER.
16. - Dress up in a mismatching outfit and go get Slushies from Mac's
17. - Buy Happy Meals at McD's =]
18. -After taking a bazillion photos, make a hugeass poster with every single one of them on it.
19. - BLOG EVERYTHING WE DO.
20. - Somehow try to fall asleep, THEN DO IT ALL AGAIN THE NEXT DAY! XD

Grr.

Current Mood; Extremely pissed.

Currently Listening To; Doomsday - Atreyu.

Last night after dinner my mom asked my brother and I to help her clean up the kitchen. Anyways, I helped her unload/re-load the dishwasher and my brother helped her do the rest. (Wipe the counters&&whatnot.) So, she goes into the bathroom and spazzes out at me. Apparantly I left 2 dishtowels in the bathrom. She literally went apeshit, saying she gave me them to put away 2 weeks ago, seriously I've no recollection of that whatsoever. I stood up and told her she never gave me any towels. She said yes I did, I said, when? I don't remember you telling me to put away any dishtowels. She said, "LIKE 2 WEEKS AGO, STOP YOUR BACKTALK YOUNG LADY." That's when I had it, I rolled my eyes and walked away. She called Shane and I into the kitchen and then she starts yelling at my brother and I, complaining about the 'lack of help.' No, a lack of help is when we don't help her at all. To be honest, we did more work than she did, and I am NOT exxagerating that. Simply, she told us to go to our rooms because she didn't want to see us for the rest of the evening. Running up the stairs I shouted "gladly." Still, I am unsure if she heard it but I don't give a rats ass at the moment. >_>


With Love;
Combustion. <3

TORONTOO???

So, from the 23rd to the 27th I'm going to Toronto! 18 days untill Jabine and I are face to face for the first time in 2 years.

&&11DaysUntilMyBirthday.

First Post

Mood; pissed.

Currently Listening To; Kill Caustic - AFI.

I haven't much to say right now, but I got my haircut today. Pictures that were took are shit, never let your mom take your picture. >_> obetchplz I'd rather take my own pictures ktnkzbye. Picture day tomorrow too. Lovely, eh? NONE of my school pictures have EVER turned out. Sad, but true. Well, I'm gonna wrap this up now.

I'll be back, bitchess.